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OFFICIAL BLOG: From Blomaga Editor's Notes (Blomaga Issue 133)

DEAR MY G-LOVERS

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We arrived at the tour's final location,
my hometown Okinawa.

In just another 2 weeks,
I'll grow older by another year.

It's fast...

In the blink of an eye
time passes just like that.

During the period from my birthday last year until today,
looking back,
I've been constantly caught up
in work related to this Last Visualive.

We're also close to welcoming
the end of the Japan tour for this Last Visualive.

Yesterday's Kagoshima performance,
was made possible through the cooperation with lots of strong friends,
who made it possible to quickly make preparations
to transfer the cancelled Kumamoto performance over.

Truly,
many friends are always helping me out in this manner.
It's something I'm grateful for.
A person can't survive
by constantly leaning on others.
However,
you can't survive alone either.

I've realised that with my feet firmly on the ground,
if I encounter difficultties
and just grit my teeth and continue running forward,
when I glance to the side,
there will be guys who are beside me
gritting their teeth and running with me.

At that point,
we will feel sympathy for some reason,
and we will acknowledge each other.
Then,
after that, when you lend each other strength,
oftentimes they will become precious friends to you.

When you further grit your teeth and keep running,
just a little ahead of you,
a mentor (senpai) of life will appear, smiling and waving to you.

They aren't there to drag someone further forward,
they're just there to tell their juniors (kouhai) who reached that point
『good work』
with a smile.

Each of their words are exceptionally warm,
and then,
they let you realise
that the place you just arrived at isn't the goal
and that it's only the start line.

However,
from there, most life mentors
will teach you how to run,
occasionally they will even kick your ass
or give you pep talks.

Their words are very strict and pertinent
so sometimes, you'll even feel biting pain from it.

However,
if you can firmly recognise
that their words
aren't said to just anyone,
you'll be able to sincerely listen to them no matter what they say
and realise that the doors of your heart naturally open up.

『Was I really a person
who was so willing to listen to others...?』

It's also natural
that you'll surprise yourself.

Life,
is really a series of surprises.
And by the time you realise it
you've already reached this age.

There are times when I feel like
the 26 year-old me is just from a few days ago.

Life passes in the blink of an eye.
That's why,
don't live your life in a way that will cause you regret.

People often
say to me
【you're living life too fast】.

For myself,
I've never thought that to be true even once.
I'm not living too fast.
Rather, isn't it the ones who came up with this phrase,
who appear to think
that time continues eternally for them...

If,
you came to know that you'll die one year later
how will you spend your remaining time?
That's how I live.

Before I reached 30,
I thought
that I'll meet the end of my life at 30.
The words that were said when I was a sickly child
have always stuck with me.
If I got into detail about that it'll become a long story
so I'll leave that for another time but,
until the time I reached 30,
I was really afraid of dying.
I wanted to clarify
the vague image of death so I thought about it a lot,
and much of my work
was written with death as the theme.

And then,
when I celebrated my 30th birthday
I encountered new feelings.

The fear surrounding that day completely disappeared.

『I managed to live until now...』

The feelings of anxiety that had been stuck in my chest for so long
had disappeared.
And from there,
with the thought that it's alright whenever the end comes
I decided in my heart
『In any case, everything I want to do,
I'll do as many as I can』.

On that day, the rest of my life began.
Counting up, I'll be celebrating the 13th year of the rest of my life next.

To other people, it may seem like
I live life recklessly.
But I'm enjoying my own way of life.

Suffer a lot
enjoy a lot,
and no matter what kind of hardship crops up,
keep running forward
with the confidence that when we look back at it
it'll become another story to laugh about.

Every part of the body,
has become bruised and battered.
I definitely can't become optimistic about the pain in my back.

But,
this pain is also my fortune.

The late Ogata Ken-san
said this
even as he suffered from cancer.

｢The pain in your body
should not be made your enemy,
but should be accepted as part of yourself,
as something you walk on together with. That is life｣

Now
I've come to understand a little more
the words that Father said.

Having come back for the first time in awhile,
Okinawa's sea breeze feels great.

"Don't be afraid of death; be afraid of an unlived life. Death is always at our side.
When we show fear it jumps at us faster than light, but if we do not show fear, it casts its eye upon us gently and then guides us into infinity..."

Well then,
I'll be off grave visiting.

GACKT

My voice can be heard
on GACKT Blomaga so,
those who want to read it all, check out the Blomaga

※This article is an excerpt from the
“GACKT's Trashy Stories” corner in the Blomaga.

【Delivered thrice a month】
http://ch.nicovideo.jp/channel/gackt

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Source: GACKT Official Blog

Translation: GACKT ITALIA Team

Translation © GACKT ITALIA

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by SaiKaiAngel