DEAR MY G-LOVERS

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Its been a few days since we’ve safely welcomed the new year.
My body is already prepared for war.

On the 31st I left Taiwan,
and returned to KL without going to Phuket.
There’s no deep reason for that.
I arrived past midnight but,
I could feel the reality of going into the new year.
Instead of another country,
I passed into the new year in the plane.

I arrived in Taiwan’s Taoyuan Airport with some time to spare.
I noticed Starbucks so I went in for a cup
before heading towards immigration.

2016-blog-jan05-01

I killed time in the slightly crowded shop
while having the morning’s espresso.
When I thought “Maybe it’s about time
that I should head towards immigration…”
I walked over to find an unbelievably long snaking queue.

Taiwan’s airport didn’t have a VIP gate either,
and I kept wondering “will I really make it in time?”
while passing around an hour in immigration
then briskly went to the gate without going into the lounge.

2016-blog-jan05-02

Fuu… Dear me… I looked around me.
There were fewer people than I expected.
Or rather,
it wouldn’t be a stretch to say that,
it’s strange that there’s almost no one.
“Would be nice if nothing happened…” I thought
and stepped into the plane.

2016-blog-jan05-03

In a bigger plane than I expected
we flew off with few passengers on board.
A woman who sat far off from me kept looking over with a dubious expression.
“Did I do something…?”
I wondered, although I couldn’t recall any cause.
I figured I should just greet anyway… and
tossed a greeting over with a smug face.

2016-blog-jan05-04

Although I arrived safely in KL
the sun has completely set.
I seemed like I made it in time to celebrate the new year,
so I went straight to the city in my stopped Lamborghini.

2016-blog-jan05-05

Unlike the airport, the city
was overflowing with lots of people.
The tourists walking around
were taking tons of photos of this car.
『Well, leave it…』
I thought, since we’re welcoming the new year too,
in the first place nothing can be done even if I got irritated.
I stopped the car as it is and started walking.

2016-blog-jan05-06

Every corner of the city had signboards celebrating the new year shining brightly.
『It’ll soon be the new year…』
I thought, and just as I looked at my watch,
fireworks lit up with a roar.

『I made it just in time…』

When I looked up,
more and more fireworks were going off messily.
While the people in the city blew whistles
they hugged strangers,
and celebrated the new year together.

2016-blog-jan05-07

I spontaneously broke into a smile.
I wonder why I’m happy at such a moment.
It really is the joy in the city.

I met the eyes of the lady next to me.
She answered me with a pleasant and joyful smile.
I naturally hugged the lady and said
『Happy new year』
with a great smile,
and went in for a hug again.

2016-blog-jan05-08

After celebrating the new year like this,
I slowly passed the time until morning in a bar.

And the next day, after sleeping a few hours,
I immediately decided to head to the gym and left in the car.

2016-blog-jan05-09 2016-blog-jan05-10

Later on friends would say
“It would’ve been good to rest at least on New Year’s…” but,
from my point of view,
I replied
“Because its the start of the year I want to start it well”
they’d smile and say “How youthful!”
and exchange greetings.

Once I arrived at the gym I started moving my body.
The first check of the condition of my body for the year.
It’s moving with a pretty good feeling.
Even the pain in the malfunctioning areas was low.

2016-blog-jan05-11

My body was overly squeezed during the later half of this year.
I have to get the muscles back on my body from now.

After doing a few warm-up exercises,
I suddenly noticed that my phone which was on vibrate
was buzzing continuously.

When I looked at it there were tons of unread messages
with up to 300 unread messages on LINE.
I thought “Did someone pass away…??”
and opened the LINE messages to look.

【Uwooooooaaaaahhhh!!!!】
【Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!】

I received these shouts
without much explanation,
and I initially had no idea what on earth happened but,
as I read and went along I realised it was about my situation in
【Kakudzuke】 which was broadcast on New Year’s Day.

2016-blog-jan05-12

Well well well… even as I thought that,
there were even friends who called me profusely.
Because I felt that it was troublesome to pick up
I left it alone.

2016-blog-jan05-13

The pressure for this time’s 【Kakudzuke】 was no joke.
Since a month before the filming for the program
quite a number of people were piling pressure on me.
I spent a month thinking
“Really just give me a break…”

Personally,
I thought 【There’s no stress at all!】 but
my usual salon’s hairstylist said

『What’s up? Are you holding onto some kind of stress?』

and I replied,

『No, there’s nothing but, why?』

and my hairstylist said,

『Uhーーm,
because there’s a small round shaped hair loss spot on your head…』

After that,
I checked in the mirror and burst out laughing
at the 10 yen coin shaped spot I got.

“I’m human too…”

I muttered with a sigh,
but the hairstylist who I’m close to laughed out loud.

『Everyone else doesn’t think that way though!』

They don’t think so… I thought,
it annoyed me a little but
I couldn’t stop laughing when I saw the hole that appeared on my head.

2016-blog-jan05-14

At such a time you can only laugh out.
You can’t do anything about things that have already happened even if you worry about it.
Instead,
it’s better to look at yourself
and work on the highlighted areas.

Nevertheless,
I was pretty desperate for this time’s program.
I could really feel
that halfway through my mental self was becoming weird.
In my mind,
I was yelling “Oy! GACKT pull yourself together!”
a number of times.

2016-blog-jan05-15

There are probably people reading this
who think
「It’s just a quiz right?」 but,
this program
has a special and unique pressure
that doesn’t exist in other programs.

Every year,
from about a month before filming, my stomach will start to hurt.

On this program,
you are required to be able to tell
which is really the expensive item,
or in other words the “real thing” but…

Even if you can actually tell what’s the real food,
when you put it in your mouth and taste it
the difference is actually really small.

2016-blog-jan05-16

Years ago,
when I first got the invitation to participate in the filming for this,

“Isn’t this impossible…”

was what I thought but now,
there’s even a me who can pretty much accept this approach.

When we get told the correct answer,
the moment when Downtown’s Hamada-san
noisily opens the door is
absurdly scary…

Even so,
somehow with the win-streak
thanks to getting it right by chance
and support from many friends who got the answers right
its become built-up to unreasonable expectations.

2016-blog-jan05-17
Starting with the conclusion,
for this time’s program
after the 2 from Johnny’s left
and the recording of the program ended
there was just a relieved me left.

『Alright, next year I’ll just rise up!!』

I was able to think that.
That is, this time’s recording,
more than anything, will be harvested to become my own asset.

A portion of the fans were saying,
Yuuma is bad!!! or Mitsu is bad!!!
There were those who were making them out to be the bad guys but
that’s completely wrong.

With regards to the offer to appear for this program,
months before the film date
each production starts to make their arrangements.
But, when picking my partner,
in recent years most entertainers would decline.

『As our 〇〇 cannot bear to
break GACKT-san’s win-streak…』

was what they’d say but well,
with that idea most offices rejected.
The entertainers all can feel the pressure.

2016-blog-jan05-18

Instead, that’s the normal response.

Among the many adults who think that image is more important,中で、
word that these two are willing to be my partners
was received.
I am sincerely thankful for that.

Of course,
I suppose the pressure is extremely high too,
that they were able to keep smiling until the end,
really more than anything it became emotional support
for me who was nervous for this program.

In the end, although they got one wrong,
who was good or bad…
instead of such low-level talk,
I think it is everything that they were able to smile
and say “Otsukaresama (thank you for your hard work)” after everything ended.

2016-blog-jan05-19

Instead,
with all the partners I’ve received until now,
its miraculous that all the entertainers
have been able to continuously get the answers right
which is something unthinkable in my opinion.

For last year’s bonsai which TM’s Nishikawa-kun attempted
I was watching via the monitor and frankly had no idea which it was.
And,
and unexpectedly this time
I ended up staring at the bonsai in the same way…

The bonsai master Nishikawa-kun is amazing.
This time I had absolutely no idea.
For me, who has absolutely no knowledge on bonsai,
there’s nothing to call it except a miracle that I got the question right.

2016-blog-jan05-20

At the moment when Hamada-san opened the door
I instinctively yelled
『Mental reset〜〜!!! 』
which was not something I only say during the program,
but is a phrase that
sums up these few years of my life’s mental state
as I look back and think on it.
Before welcoming 2016,
being able to do a mental reset is,
to me, an asset more than anything.

I want to sincerely thank
Johnny’s Mitsu and Yuuma
for giving me this opportunity.
Thank you.

『After that it’s just rising higher』

That’s become the guideline of 2016 for me.

2016-blog-jan05-21

The word “rise”,
is not only referring to 【Kakudzuke】.
I’m talking about my own mental state.

What’s the -reason- that makes people rank you a first-class?
That will happen,
as long as you possess
a 【mentality -心-】 that suits someone who’s a first-class person.

2016-blog-jan05-22

This 2016,
will definitely become a good opportunity
to sharpen my own mental state.

The last, as GACKT,
when the LASTVISUALIVE tour starts
I’ll be refreshed.

I’ve been thinking about various things until now.
If I say that the skies that were cloudy
have suddenly cleared up, I wonder if you’ll understand.

【First-class people are those who possess a first-class mentality】

Until now I’m still second-class.
No, third-class.
I’m still far from qualified to be called first-class.
So,
to be qualified to be called that,
to let myself feel that I’m qualified,
I’ll sharpen my mental state.
It’ll become that kind of 2016.

My name is GACKT.
My motto is 『Mr. EXPERT』

To be qualified to be called that,
day after day,
I’ll properly execute
what I need to do.
For me to be myself.

GACKT

2016-blog-jan05-23

My voice can be heard
on GACKT Blomaga so,
those who want to read it all, check out the Blomaga

※This article is an excerpt from the
“GACKT’s Trashy Stories” corner in the Blomaga.

【Delivered thrice a month】
http://ch.nicovideo.jp/channel/gackt

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Translation: GACKT ITALIA Team

Translation © GACKT ITALIA